“Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.”
- Anais Nin

Stress. Chaos. Worry. Fear. When Master is already feeling the strain, I can’t seem to express mine to him. My job is to make his world easier, not add to his already long list of things to worry about and maintain. So in the last few weeks as I have become increasingly stressed and filled with fear about finances and the direction my business is taking and how we’re going to make things work, I’ve tried (very poorly) to hold it all in and handle it alone. Unfortunately, just like many things I have attempted recently, this failed miserably. The last few weeks have been the hardest downswing I’ve felt possibly in years, to the point that I flat out told him that I’m failing at everything I do inside the walls of our own home and needed a break.

So I got ahold of an old friend and spent a night out on the town. In the end it was the absolute best thing I could have done, because for the first time in weeks I was able to completely forget everything that was weighing me down and just be the person I am when we hang out. Able to laugh at the little details that make up our silly, hectic, servile lives. I felt less alone in my stress when the focus turned to how much they bust ass day in and day out. I was able to enjoy the fact that no matter how much time goes by or things move around us, when we hang out it’s like we haven’t missed a moment. Solid. Dependable. Home.

Now I feel reset and restored, and more like myself than I have in months.

Tags: Friendship

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